Happiness.

The other night, Nick and I had cozied up into bed, said our prayers, and started to talk. I realized a feeling that has been lingering in my chest for a few days. I was so grateful for the husband I have and for all of our countless blessings but something didn't feel good.

"I don't feel like I'm progressing as a person."

Those words came out of my mouth before I could even think of what they meant. And the weird thing was that I agreed with myself. I went on to explain in more detail how I felt. All I do is sit at home. I wish I was going to school. I don't do anything. I can't drive. (I know.. I know... how pathetic. I'm married and I can't drive.) I have made myself into someone afraid of the outside.

I don't like it. I figured Nick would just say something like, "Well, do something. Get a job." We have been around and around this topic and I did not want to hear those words right then.

And I didn't.


Instead, there was a short pause and a tight squeeze. He then proceeded to tell me all sorts of things I can do. He told me to paint. To read. To sew. To craft. He told me so many different ways that I can express myself and progress at the same time. It was all what I needed to hear.

He loves me and I know that he will help me be the best person I can be. Forever.


"As a husband and wife are each drawn to the Lord (see 3 Ne. 27:14), as they learn to serve and cherish one another, as they share life experiences and grow together and become one, and as they are blessed through the uniting of their distinctive natures, they begin to realize the fulfillment that our Heavenly Father desires for His children. Ultimate happiness, which is the very object of the Father's plan, is received through the making and honoring of eternal marriage covenants." - David A. Bednar


Ultimate happiness is our goal.