Wants

Last night as I crawled into bed to cuddle with the hubs, I couldn't stop thinking about how other people are influencing my life. I thought about all of my friends who are parents now or expecting. I thought about all of those couples celebrating their (insert number here) anniversary. I realized how much those people have actually influenced my wants. I "want" to celebrate our anniversary. I "want" to have a baby.

When it comes down to it, I really don't. I have been living through the wants of others and it's tiring. As I was laying in the arms of my beloved, I realized what I actually, truly want. I want to live my life focusing on the now. I haven't been married for five years or one year or six months or even four months. We are still newlyweds and that is what I want. It's what I need. I need to strengthen what I have. I am so in love with my husband. I want to cherish this new adventure we have together before we add to our little family or even before that one year anniversary.

So many people have been asking me how the married life is. Let me tell you.

Married life is a learning process. It's full of fun and joy. It's full of love and laughter. Pain and challenge. Hurt feelings and honest apologies. I feel like every single day is an adventure waiting to happen. Every new discovery makes my heart leap. Every time I let my guard down, he is there for me. We are there to teach and to learn from each other. I love being married. I love the challenges it brings, the day-to-day nonsense, the steady date nights, the constant love and affection. But most of all, I love that I have my best friend by my side forever.


And that's all I want.