Call me.... maybe?

So, we all know this song, yes?

Well, this next video proves that Carly Rae Jepsen can just keep her number. My husband and I both agree that we would call Ben Howard over Carly Rae ANY. DAY.

And just for funsies. To ruin your brain of course ;) Here is our President.

What version is your favey fave?

Life.

I don't know what to write. I mean, let's be honest. I haven't been around on the blog for a few months but I still continue to read up on my favs. It seems like the women I read about know everything. They all have everything figured out and they have perfect lives. I wanted to feel put together and on top of things.

As I sit here and type this out, I realize that discovering is part of life. We all have to figure out how to live and grow. We all go through a time when we don't know what we want to be when we grow up. Some people never quite figure that out. Everyone has a story. They may be similar, but every story is unique.

I have a story. My life is going to change many times throughout the time I am here on Earth. I am going to change. Some things change willingly. Others are out of our control.

This blog is something I want to change. I need to create a space that feels like a Kelsi space. I have been thinking a lot about changing the name of my blog. While I do love the sunshine, I want something different. Something that I connect with. Here's to brainstorming and learning. Most of all, here's to change.

Good days

Here is a list. A list of good things.

1. I am married and I love my husband.

2. I love this little growing family and the funny thing is we haven't even met. The joys of internet. I'm creepy.. I know.

3. I don't have skin cancer or any kind of skin disease. (this may sound harsh like it's gross that people have skin diseases and I hate them, but that's not the case. I had to have a mole biopsied and I am all clean and healthy.)

4. We saw The Lorax last night.

5. It is raining.

6. We are going to the temple on Saturday. (See you there? Cool.)

7. We have goals.

8. I believe in Jesus Christ.

9. I have a family.

10. I am a licensed driver.



Peace out, friends.

K is for Kelsi

Me.


I am anxious.
I am nervous.
I am timid.
I am shy.
I take my time.
I feel.
I feel too much.
I find it hard to talk to people.
I create.
I am willing.
I am happy.
I am helpful.
I am learning.
I am growing.


These last few weeks I have felt myself grow. I am beginning to understand myself.

People see me how I let them see me.
I can let them see the anxiety, nerves, and shyness.
Or I can let them see the happy, willing, loving person I keep hidden for reasons that I found are just excuses.

I take my time with life because I am anxious. When I encounter a new challenge, it frightens me. Most people take challenges and progression head on. I take my own pace. I sit and figure it out and then I will move forward when I am ready.


There is nothing wrong with me.

Most of my friends have had real jobs, finished a majority of their college career, and they have had their drivers license for years. Me? I haven't. I'm ok with that. I am taking my own time.


When the time comes, I know I will be ready.



 I am unique and I am at peace with that.

Small joys

Yesterday, Nick and I joined in for a little birthday celebration for this guy. We went to a place in town called P. Wexford's. The food is amazing! I had only ever been there during the lunch hours so I didn't think it was ever crowded. Boy, I couldn't have been more wrong. Turns out we showed up on "Pint Night."

Worst. Idea. Ever. I had a mini panic attack. Once we sat down at the table I felt like something swallowed me and I would never come out again... Awkward? I went outside for some air and my husband made me feel all better. He is so patient with me when I freak out. I love him. (.... I could feel myself smiling like a crazy when I typed that. Why am I so awkward?)

I got all better and we enjoyed our awesome family dinner to the sound of an awesome live cover band and life was awesome.

(BTW! Before I move on to the next part of our little story: Happy birthday, Nathan! You're awesome!)


After dinner we drove to the store to pick up some lady things that I was in desperate need of (okay... desperate is a little bit of an exaggeration, but I was still in need. Humor me). We decided to mosey into the Target closest to our house for the purchase.

If you're anything like me and Nick, you can't just go into Target and get the one thing you need. We have no control. BUT I am proud to say that I haven't moseyed into the clothing section in months. Moving on.

We strolled through the store and wound up in the back next to the books. Nick pointed out the Hunger Games series and I died a little inside wishing I could buy them all. I won't settle for paperback so I just have to save up and move on.

We were seriously crazy last night. Our combined attention span seemed very very minuscule as we strutted through the books and DVDs. That's when it happened. All at once, we both noticed an amazing sale on amazing shows on DVD. "What was it" you ask? Well, let me tell you! Select seasons were only $15. Fif. Teen. Dollars. What did we do? Grab seasons without regret. Best decision ever.

So. With 20 ish bucks out of pocket (we had a gift card), we bought lady things, season 4 of Gossop Girl, and seasons 3 and 4 of The Big Bang Theory. STEAL. I felt mildly dishonest for a very short period of time. We saved about 100 bucks. We win.

Bewilderment

So last night, I had dream after dream that I was pregnant.


Now, just letting the whole world know: Nick and I are not planning on growing our family any time soon. We are perfectly happy with our married life and the time we get to spend together. Just the two of us.

With that being said, I woke up super happy.

In my family, dreams mean a lot of things. My mom has "seen the future" if you will. I can feel things in my dream and wake up knowing it's truer than dirt. So, I woke up thinking I was going to have a baby in 9 months. No. I didn't think. I knew I was going to have a baby.

I spent hours this morning thinking about where to buy a pregnancy test and all that jazz. As I was relaxing and soaking in a strangely wonderful feeling, Aunt Flow came knocking. She came knocking hard.

You could say I was more than confused.

You got me, Mother Nature. You got me.

[Totally Awesome Tuesday]

Ok. First thing is first. I keep missing certain keys or hitting the wrong ones resulting in misspelled words. If this post happens to contain any, please pardon my faults. No one is perfect these days. So there. I win.

1. My husband's side of the bed is more comfortable than mine. It gives me good sleeps and dreams. We are switching sides as of now.

2. I beat a video game last week. Nick likes to brag about me and how it happened in 13 days. He can't even do that.

3. I slept with a stuffed animal last night. Don't judge me.

4. It's sunny today.

5. Has anyone else noticed how the rain makes the sidewalks awesome looking? It might be one of my favorite things.

6. Nick and I bought this book for our Christmas present to ourselves. We have been reading it every night and it is amazing. It really enhances things in the scriptures. I would recommend it to anyone for family reading time. We are making it a plan to buy the other scriptures just like these before we have kids.

7. It's Tuesday and it's jammie day.

8. We recently put some money into more cleaning products. We got the Swiffer duster. I have cleaned things that I never want to. It's actually fun to use. Writing this may or may not be making me want to dust.

9. My engagement and wedding rings have the infinity symbol on the inside. Nick didn't know that when he bought them. They just came knowing that we would be together forever.

10. All of our laundry is put away. I hate hate hate folding/hanging/folding/folding clothes. HATE. But last night we tackled the pile of clothes that needed to be put in their homes. I discovered I need more hangers or less clothes... More hangers it is.



Tell me something awesome!

Honestly?

Sometimes...

It's hard for me to get outside of my comfort zone and talk to people.

I'm reminded of how much I love Nick when he wakes me up every morning with kisses. 

I feel self-conscious when I am trying new things with my wardrobe.

I am mildly dishonest when I use coupons.

I can't imagine a world without family. 

I'm surprised that I still want to go to school.

I get a little too easily wrapped up in negative thoughts.

I indulge in guilty pleasures like Gossip Girl and young adult novels.

I wish all things in life were as wonderful as love. 

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Sam  decided to play a little game with everybody. I thought I would join in and share some little secrets with you. Maybe they aren't necessarily "secrets" but they aren't things I share freely. Consider yourselves awesome. 

What about you? I want to know what you guys would say! Share in the comments or post it on your blog and send me the link. That way we can all be friends. Ok? Cool. 

BTW. If you haven't already and you're a regular, you should click the follow button. Ya know, for fun. =)

For the record, I follow the rules of couponing. I only feel midly dishonest.

Happiness.

The other night, Nick and I had cozied up into bed, said our prayers, and started to talk. I realized a feeling that has been lingering in my chest for a few days. I was so grateful for the husband I have and for all of our countless blessings but something didn't feel good.

"I don't feel like I'm progressing as a person."

Those words came out of my mouth before I could even think of what they meant. And the weird thing was that I agreed with myself. I went on to explain in more detail how I felt. All I do is sit at home. I wish I was going to school. I don't do anything. I can't drive. (I know.. I know... how pathetic. I'm married and I can't drive.) I have made myself into someone afraid of the outside.

I don't like it. I figured Nick would just say something like, "Well, do something. Get a job." We have been around and around this topic and I did not want to hear those words right then.

And I didn't.


Instead, there was a short pause and a tight squeeze. He then proceeded to tell me all sorts of things I can do. He told me to paint. To read. To sew. To craft. He told me so many different ways that I can express myself and progress at the same time. It was all what I needed to hear.

He loves me and I know that he will help me be the best person I can be. Forever.


"As a husband and wife are each drawn to the Lord (see 3 Ne. 27:14), as they learn to serve and cherish one another, as they share life experiences and grow together and become one, and as they are blessed through the uniting of their distinctive natures, they begin to realize the fulfillment that our Heavenly Father desires for His children. Ultimate happiness, which is the very object of the Father's plan, is received through the making and honoring of eternal marriage covenants." - David A. Bednar


Ultimate happiness is our goal.

[Totally Awesome Tuesday] Special Edition

This totally AWESOME Tuesday will be dedicated to an amazing person.


This week, instead of many awesome things to share, I am sharing one amazing thing that will lead to so many other people experiencing awesome. My brother-in-law, Nathan.

You see that handsome fella on the left? Well, my friends, that is my little brother. He is amazing and getting ready to start an amazing adventure in his life that will bless him and his future family for generations.

In our faith, worthy young men spend two years of his life serving a mission somewhere inspired. They fill out paperwork, send it in, and within a few weeks they receive a mission call.

I asked a few people for predictions of where Nathan would be serving. I heard Australia, Russia, Zimbabwe, England and many more. None of us guessed correctly. Our loving brother will be serving in the......

ARGENTINA BUENOS AIRES NORTH MISSION!!!!! 

What an amazing experience this will be for him. We still get a few months together before he leaves for two years so I'm pretty happy about that. 

Holly Jolly: Part 2

Welcome to the festivities! If you missed part one, go check it out! 

Shall we start with Christmas Eve? We shall. It was a marvelous time! Twas full of pie... 

...decor...

...and pure silliness. 

He wouldn't let us record him and "put it all over youtube." I hope this is a tradition that lasts forever. I loved being stuffed with pie and love. It was an amazing Christmas Eve. 

Our Christmas morning was magical. We woke up super early so we could open presents before we went to church. I would put up pictures but I'll spare your eyes. ;) The Christmas program at church left me with such a spiritual high. I don't think anybody left there sad or feeling alone. How could you with such an amazing Spirit?! 

We went to Nick's parents' house to open presents and have breakfast which turned into lunch of course. =) We spent all day at their house. It was so nice to be with family and know that they're mine. I love all of Nick's family. I like bonding time. 

Oh. And before I go, I have to point out that my mother-in-law made a cake ball nativity for the missionaries. It was complete with Mary, Joseph, baby Jesus, a manger, angel, donkey, sheep, walls, and dirt/hay/poo. She never ceases to crack me up.

Does your family have any wonderful traditions for the holidays? What did you do?

Holly Jolly: Part 1

 I realize it is about the middle of January but I promised myself I would do a post about our first Christmas. Technically it isn't our first holiday season together but it was our first married Christmas. Which I loved. We had so much fun decorating for our first year together. From picking out a tree to deciding on where to put things. All of it was new and exciting. Growing up everything already had a spot. I knew where to put things and what to put on the tree. This year was totally different. Totally.

Our first stop was to the tree lot to pick out a real tree. We found the perfect one. If only in the future we can find a fake tree as amazing as this one was.

Taking it home.

Our tree! 

We set up all of our other decorations! Here is a look at we lived with for about a month and I'm not complaining. It was magical. The pictures don't do it justice.

Isn't that last picture just so cute? It makes me giggle. Without further ado, here is our first Christmas tree together. Merry Christmas, xoxo. 

BTW! My special announcement is NOT me being pregnant. I think everyone and their moms would kill me if I announced a pregnancy on my blog first. 

Ketchup

I have woken up the last few days feeling really guilty about not blogging. I have no clue why. I mean it's not like I have to blog or else I'd die. That is a little extreme. But it's how I have felt, nevertheless.

The holidays in our home were absolutely perfect! And I mean it! I felt so blessed! I have planned a Christmas post for a long time but I never got around to doing it. Which makes me sad because come on! It's Christmas! So, I will give you a little (lame) sneak peak here at our first Christmas! (more to come)

After Christmas happened, my big brother and his girlfy came to visit! Sadly I didn't get ANY pictures of Quinn and Rachael while they were here. But I did find out that I can whoop Quinn's butt at games. He didn't like losing. To anyone. We rang in the new year with lovely friends playing some crazy games. I don't think I have ever played so many games in my life let alone in one week! It is really nice to be able to see family! Quinn lives in Texas so it's always a treat. 

The first week of January, we got some special news! Stay tuned within the week to find out what it is! Any suspicions? (And if you know, don't play because that's just not fun) 

Take care, friends.